To start I have not had Any Internet access in my home so I have been writing my blogs at work and today I had a crisis and had no access to a computer at all....
So before feeling like this may just be the end of my adventure in this challenge, I sat down and pondered harder than Winnie the Pooh and I came up with a solution "I will use my phone!"
So please excuse if there are no pictures because I don't know how capable this is going to be but I must say thank goodness for smart phones!!!!
That said the journey continues...(nothing will stop me!)
Practice: 2hrs 15min
This is the total of my practice from using the vocalization
tracks and my song practice with my vocal instructor
For about an hour I alternated between the goo goo, baby voice, and tongue trills on my own before going to vocal.
My song: ordinary people- John Legend
This is now my official cover song.
Today I had my first vocal lesson with Aaron Marcellus.
I have to admit I was scare like crazy to do this even though he is someone I know.
I spent the first 20 min being too scared to sing for absolutely no reason..thoughts running through my head consisted of:
What if people outside hear me?
What if I sound like William hung?
What if people laugh at me because I sing so badly?
What if they do not like me?
What if they say I can't sing?
I then had an epiphany!
I noticed that these thoughts running through my head are the same thoughts that run through my head when I am about to dance.
I realized that because of my unwillingness to let go of these thoughts I was unable to dance freely.
The psychological chains of doubt within myself and my ability were stopping me from giving my all as well as convincing me that that small bit of my talent that I offered was all that I had to offer.
This is the same thing that happened when I felt defeated in my musical theatre class, I don't try to do my best because I am afraid of the criticism I would receive after doing my best.
It hurts more when you try your very best and somebody tells you it's not enough.
I walked around the city and on my way home I saw some street performers and I thought to myself " these guys are so brave"
To be in New York on the streets and really perform your art without a care of how people may view your art is what I would love to be able to do.....
That is all I would want to gain in this challenge... I guess the biggest thing that I have realized from this challenge is: The only person preventing you from being the best is yourself...
We spend way too much time worrying about what other people think about our talent and our gifts....
We forget that they are gifts, it is as if we were given these talents in the form of seeds
We need to give these seeds soil (ourselves) and sunlight (the world) this is the only way we could grow..
Everyone in this challenge is amazing and extremely talented and I am inspired by everyone here
I am promising myself that from now on whilst I am in this challenge I will not allow the fear of someone else judging me to stop me from giving it my all
Because people will judge whether I give my all or not so I may as well have them judge me at my best
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